Devious Journal Entry

I am fifteen freaking years old and my father is forcing me to get a job two hours from home and live in a dorm for a month.

I am so scared and I have to leave tomorrow and I don't know what to do.

I was told about this a long time ago and everything seemed fine about it. But in the past week I've just been given the information about it and everything I had thought or been told has been so far off from what I now know. Every day I get more and more scared because this does not seem like a scenario I can handle and I am not able to back out thanks to my asshole of a dad and I'm having such a panic attack and I don't know what to do.

I just want to stay home and get the sleep I haven't been able to get all summer and finish up summer school and work on pursuing my career but I'm being forced into this dark tunnel because it'll 'give me experience' despite knowing that I could be recieving better, more relevant experience by staying home, but my dad isn't listening and I'm scared, I am so damn scared and I want to curl up into a ball and disapear I can't do this I'm not ready to do this I don't need to do this and I don't know what to do and I'm just. I'm scared. I'm scared and there's nothing I can do.